Heard enough of “Stay Positive” this pandemic

Uncertainty. This is the word I would describe my world for the past one year. Covid-19 pandemic has take over most of our most mundane life in Malaysia since March 2020. And it doesn’t seem to be over any time soon. People lost many things during this time – from simpler things like hobby, to some of the more serious things in life, like source of income and losing people they loved. Things seems bleak at the moment.

We will make it through. But I would be kidding you if I don’t feel hopeless and depressed sometimes. This is a challenging time.

People say “stay positive”. Yes, we must. But how?

Those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

Isaiah 40:31

There were times before this that uncertainty and hopelessness was all I felt. God has always been my anchor of hope and strength through many ups and downs. It’s like I had strength ‘just enough’ to take one step forward and gradually recover from this downward spiral of hopelessness. Does just by thinking”positive”, all goody-goody things in my mind all day, would helped me through tough times? Anyone who tries this before knows it’s darn hard! And when you had enough, you feel this positive thinking is all too abstract and philosophical.

But I did a very practical thing to the so-called “stay positive” – I count my blessings every day. I mean WRITE it down, every day. Even in days when everything goes wrong and I don’t feel like giving thanks because…there’s nothing to give thanks!

Appreciate every little thing in life. That’s how I started.

Let me show you how I did it one day, amidst of this pandemic:

Last month, we were still in the Movement Control Order (MCO) and we couldn’t cross states because the Covid-19 cases were still very high. I couldn’t see my family. Thinking about my mom at home, bedridden, can be very overwhelming. But I was grateful that day my husband drove us to a little town called Balik Pulau. We haven’t been there for a long time.

Some buildings deteriorated but there is also buildings that survived.

We visited my favourite laksa (noodles) place. I savoured every bit and drop. I wish I can bring my mom to taste my favourite laksa. Maybe one day I can. My mind wants to go to every bad direction, but that day I gave thanks for a moment like this, and for the fact that I can bring her this dish…just not today, and it’s alright.

Love every bit of this laksa ♡

Then we walked around the town. It was a very hot day so we decided to drop by a tiny little cafe. Due to MCO, cafes requires to space their tables for social distancing. That makes this tiny cafe even smaller. We waited for our turn and eventually seated on a very narrow table near the window because all the proper table seats are occupied. Not where we want to be but it was alright, I’m grateful for a shelter from the hot sun outside. We soon realised we’ve got a very nice view of a garden while sipping a cuppa. It was a unexpected grace.

Despite many unanswered prayers that I still struggle with today, I look at my husband and thankful he’s here with me. I appreciate the present and still hope for the future.

On our way home, we saw a little road on the hill which seems to lead to some place. I asked my husband “Want to check it out?”. Why not. So, we detour and found this hidden gem – P14 pitstop. No one was there, it was windy, serene and calming. And what a view! Perfect end to the day’s trip.

This is one day. I practice it everyday. It may seem hard at first but trust me, you’ll get better. The key is to keep doing it. I keep a digital journal and I do it first thing in the morning.

This doesn’t mean I’ve never gotten a negative thought ever again or rolling on my ‘bed of roses’ every day. But counting my blessings is a very practical thing I did to “stay positive”, stay hopeful, gradually shifting my mind for the better. The more I practice seeing positive things in life, I eventually see more positive things happening around me…that there are so many good things in life actually.

We can stop saying “stay positive”, and ask ourself or others “what can I be thankful for today” instead.

“From the ashes, we will rise”

The 100

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3 thoughts on “Heard enough of “Stay Positive” this pandemic

  1. I really like this post. Recording blessings, and even anxieties, works for me too. God is with you! Phil. 4:6-7 in the NLT has been a real blessing to my wife and I over some years now.

  2. Great post! I love your photo at the pit stop. I think it is so helpful to spend a little time in nature and see that God still has that under control. Of course, He is in control everywhere, but it is hard to focus on that because of all the negative words and ideas bombarding us every day. Spending a day like you did here brings back a focus that there is something and Someone bigger than this pandemic, that He is even more real than the things we see around us. He has, indeed, given us many gifts, and He deserves our thanks for what we still have and can still enjoy.

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